hav u ever wondered~...

how nice it would be to have a super model or mayb a hollywood star actor/actress as ur gf/bf...???
all the attention u get... fame and fortune...

something juz got me thinking..
can a person have feelings for another person purely on that persons innerself??
or.. outlooks of that person is the biggest influence to the so called feelings u have for ur partner...

does having feelings for someone that is totally not influenced by the outlooks of the person really exist???

I DOUBT IT...!!!
Coz it has never happened to me...

until the day this very situation happen to me, only then i will change my thinking... coz it has been a rather bumpy ride~ on the roller coaster for me... and i'm kinda tired of it... always doing the work most of the time... making the 1st move...

when will the time when my work is appreciated by the other?? the other reacts positively to my move... the other opening up to me... the other looking at me seeing the good and help me improve on the bad... and the most important... looking at my inner-self... and not my outlooks...

i'll be waiting for that very person to come... from now onwards... let the waiting begin~~~

cheers,
lu shen

finally... my dear internet is bakk~~ i missed it ssooooo muchh....>.<

practically bored to death without it...
and lucky for me i manage to get my old PS(PlayStation) to work...
its been years sitting there not touched... and it comes in handy during times of emergency like this

ok, now... since my internet's bak...PPSTREAMMMM~!!!!!=P
wakakakakakakaka~~~xD

chaooo~~^^

cheers,
lu shen

omg~~
juz now, went out wid parents...
as i juz about to cross the road...
a motorbike snatched away an old man's bag...@.@
and it happened so fast...
i oso didnt noe wad happened...>.<

if the old man was not next to me...
i would have been the victim...>.<
so scary...

i really thk god nothing happened to me...

cheers,
lu shen

haha... actually i jz wanna write something and i dunno wad title to put... so, that's a title lah...hahahaha~xD

THANK YOU MY DEAR SIS FOR CALLING ME UP TO WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY... LOVE U TO BITS...^^

some how, i feel motivated to write something here... but i dun really noe wad to write... hmm...
my life's boring... nothing going on...

let's see...
i cant slep, and i'm wide awake...
therefore i'm facing my blog and typing something...
at the same time listening to songs...
hoping to get some inspiration from them songs~

i'm not sure wad i'm typing nw, but i noe its words i'm typing... and not some alien language which goes...bubaa-lloea sisico-laladu... or wadever tat means...lol~~xD

ouu yeaa~~!!.. i've got soft copy of novels on my hp~!!(thks Silvia) hehehe.. now i no nid to bring bulky novels around...^.^

i dunno whether u'll read this, but in regards to one of the small topic on ur blog...
what i noe is that confidence is something that u nid to build by yourself...
u cant juz suddenly wake up one morning and "BOOM" u r confident~!!
how u build u might ask... that's actually up to how u figure a way to build it...
it cn be through shows like 'Queer eye for a straight guy'(i love those gay guys, they r juz hilarious)~?? or mayb picking up some details from 'America's next top model'? or mayb by going to the saloon and telling the hair dresser... 'change my hair style...' or mayb going to a gym n tone up ur body... or mayb juz by looking at the mirror and telling urself~ 'you are juz marvelous'... i dunno~ there are many ways... and its up to u to figure out ur own way...

one of my ways is, everytime i lost confidence in myself... i'll tell myself~
'are u gonna chicken out and lose the chance then regret not doing it?? or are u gonna just do it n come out to tell the story and have no regrets...'

depending on situations though... sometimes it goes like this~
'look.. the result will either be yes or no, gud or bad, pass or fail, etc... either way its a 50-50 chance... so just go for it... at least u tried~ rather then not trying and not knowing wad is the outcome... who noes the result might be positive??? if its negative then learn from it and do better next time~'
sometimes its lik this~
'go ahead and make the 1st move, he/she won't bite...'

the most important is u lived it and come out knowing that others have not...
of course making that 1st step is not easy, but do u want to feel regret NOT making the 1st step?? or are u gonna take the 1st step and live to tell the story??

this world, there is 2 type of ppl...
Leaders and Followers
who u wan to be?? a follower or a leader???

live life to the fullest, coz u'll only live it once...=)

cheers,
lu shen

haih... nothing to blog abt la...@.@
so bored...

ouuu~~
watched 2012 on PPStream...
hehehe...

i wonder if 'that' will happen at the year 2012? or later... or before...
seriously scary~~

*scared*
but then, dying i a natural thing...
and i admit, i am scared of dying...>.<
who's not...@.@

but being able to die wit the ones u love will make everything different...
however, of course if there is an option other then dying... take it~!!!..>.<

haha... next movie... new moon?? =P

cheers,
lu shen

reports~~@.@
haiii~~!! >>_<<

have to finish it up fast so that mom cn check my spellings n all...
but then the mood to do is juz not there...
haih, cham loorh~@.@

mood arh mood... come come...=P
*like calling dog... lol~xD

go eat lunch 1st...=P

cheers,
lu shen

haha...
THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALL THE WISHES..=)
really touching to see all of the wishes coming in...=)

well, i'm officially 21 now...
feeling so old liaoo larh~T.T
anyway, begining of 20yrs only.. hahaha... stil young stil young...>.<

celebrated wit parents at home today...
had a great steamboat dinner and cake..=)
its been ages since i last celebrated my bday wit a cake... haha..
a tiramitsu cake to round up the dinner...
splendid..^^

i didnt really take much pics... coz its really messy in my hse kitchen...>.<
and oso, nothing much to see la..haha...
drink alot... wanna drink wine later...hehehe...xD
come on~~...
21 at this hour... i'm suppose to be wasted ...@.@
but i'm not... argh~~
i'll leave tat for the hse party later on...=P

its 11:57pm nw...
so fast end..T.T
i dun wan today to end so fast lerhh...

time really flies...
looking bak at the days of my childhood...
i still remember me running around my old apartment area playing wit kids from other families...
swinging on the monkey bars...
jumping around...
sitting and eventually STANDING on swings... yea... standing...haha
hide and seek...
years later... moved out of tat area...
went to somewhere without monkeybars, swings, see-saws, and all those fun stuff... really bored...
after tat, cycling in the afternoon after class was a must-do...
everday without fail i'll be cycling wid my fren, exploring the areas arnd my hse...
and bak home after the sun's down...
then when i was in morning class... cycling in the afternoon was only done in the afternoon...
during holidays, me n my fren will cycle to the beach... which is almost 10 km away... crazy days tat was...
after tat, cycling was no more an interest... driving was~!!!... hahaha...
then, there was the mind-boggling days of SPM...

i was happy to see my name in the country's national service programme...
went through the 3 months stint... it was ok la~~ quite enjoy oso...

college was then the next step...
had my mind on wad i want and wher i wanna go..
so everything was short n sweet...^^

started a new life...
everything began frm scratch...
new ppl, new faces, new environment...
so many new things...
slowly coped with the changes...
suddenly, diploma was over...
along the way,
met that some special...
but things didnt turn well... and she there goes...
learnt alot frm it, and slowly things were not as bad anymore...

and now here i am...
still searching, still amending, and still hoping...
looking forward to another new year...
hopefully things wun turn out as bad as this yer... or mayb worst...T.T

"u were expecting that so called gud fren of urs would say something on ur bday... but instead, he remained silent... silent as a mouse... well, mayb he forgot... bahh~~ screw u... i've lost contact wit u anyway, so yea... wadever..."

cheers,
lu shen

P.S. mom wished for a boy and dad wished for a girl/boy... hahaha.. my green light...^^ *ting ting~~!!!!* [if u cn understan then gud for u, u r a fast thinking one... if u cnt catch wad i mean, hahaha... think again be4 asking me..=)its obvious...]